Sunday, January 30, 2011

Are you the Protector?

Thought I just slipped into a dream
and Then I heard a knock on my door
There she was standing, distressed & out of control
I ask her nothing & I stay there calm
My eyes closed and my heart mocking cold!
She now sighs and lets out a distressed cry
I hug her tightly, trying not to open my eye

I hold her gently,brushing her hair so light
thinking now what's wrong and what is really bothering her tonight?
She confides her every concern and again seeking No Advise!
I assured her she's protected and told she'd be alright.

I saw her leaving the room with no word No Sigh...

I should have left it there but again I knocked on her door
I crowned myself "The Protector" Dusting my old Armour to Shine.
Equipped with my weapon of experience I entered the battle field.
I told her

Friday, February 20, 2009

Er...My son? A fungus: NEVER!

I listened to my heart.My heart,which pounded like a chained,mad,hungry Pomeranian dog said nothing :| I tried conditioning my brain.Thought, a lil imaginative mind exercise could lock it in the streamlined thinking mode.(confused about the heart,brain and mind? WHATEVER!)

********CONDITIONING/iMagination********

I imagined my life with a PhD degree.As a matter of fact I'm a postdoc too B-)
That one special fungus became my very best friend,my career,my life and my first love :)
My day started with the investigations on a new survival strategy adopted by that fungus
and my day ended with a thesis on the applications of its structural morphology.

My life revolved around this perfectly simple(with complex metabolism cycles) and special fungus,I've spent years working on its genes and one day I met another PostDoc who apparently works on the same fungus with equal Zeal and drive. Our common interest(on this special fungus) dragged us to one another

Together we won a Nobel prize for our discoveries about the metabolic constraints involved in the survival strategies of that special fungus and then, we get married!
Our wedding was an International celebration ,there were live telecasts on BBC and NDTV 8->.
My Maid of honor, my colleague and my best friend reads out a whole para about the "fungal survival strategies" which I made her write in the made of honor speech :|

My life was smooth and I must tell you 2022 was a very remarkable year! I had my first child, the joy of our life is named after the very special thing which brought us together.Yes
we named our child FUNGUS ! (I know,The funkiest name ever)

Our lil fungus turns 8 and as always, we were busy arranging for the perfect party for our little fungus.

we invited all our friends,we arranged an awesome party.world's best performers were hired to keep the crowd entertained,everything was perfect. yes perfect until....

The world's best stand up comic pulls up an ugly stunt of cracking the silliest and the most senseless joke on my son's name

My 8 yr old son was hurt,his tiny lil heart was shattered into zillion pieces.
he came to me with tears running down his pink cheeks and asked me one unexpected question(s)

' why did you do this to me Mommy? why do you hate me so much ?'

I tried to comfort him. I wanted tell him that i loved him so much that i would cut my heart open if he asked me to. I wanted to tell him so much...so much about the pain i was enduring in my heart at this very moment. (yes, I'm having a heart attack )

This lil incident was too much for me to handle (come' on I am fifty two and what do you expect! don't you think i am a lil old for this of emotions! :-?) This is it! this is my very last moment in the world. Speaking out my very last words "Faaangaaas...." I collapsed into my husband's arms)






I woke up shouting like a dying sheep.
I woke up to see my roommies' confused and shocked faces :D
Well, yea they whined a little.but that's all right I forgive them :)
***see, I'm such an angel :"> ****


Uhum,Time to take an oath!
No matter what happens I'd never name my son fungus!....NEVER!!

***Oh! please jee No!! stop applauding....you are embarrassing me :"> ***

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Er....My son? a Fungus??


prologue: I've been trying to update my blog...Oww trust me I did try :|Er,I found no inspiration,Nothing triggered me emotionally!
well of course, had few pretty amazing moments.Like,the longest journey of my life(48 hrs of flying :p),my first snow fall (Ahem!people here call it a sleet fall :|),My awful cooking experience,My best friend's wedding....
But, nothing...nothing inspired me the way a fungus did!
Now,I dedicate this post to that very special fungus which gave me an inspiration to get along with my Less than perfect Life! and more importantly which kept me busy for a month :)


And the Story begins....

For past 2 weeks I've been moving hell and earth(yes,I am not so sure about the Heaven's existence!...so, keep moving! go to the next line) in my attempts to figure out the sequence of a hypothetical protein in a special fungus. This special fungus made me think(Okay, drop it! stop drawing conclusions and go on....keep reading) Yes,It made me think! I thought about my life,my future,my past and more importantly my present.
The only thing which bothered me was a question i was scared to answer
i.e. If i really wanted to do this?I mean the "research".Do i see myself as Dr.Kaki in 5 yrs? I don't know :-??sounds cool to me :D
But,again am i really interested in this fungus?may be I am or may be not....

I thought for a while, killed few neurons and then I panicked.Trust me thinking stuff's got a very bad effect on my mind.I realized that was more confused than ever :(
So,I tried calming down,I tried listening to my heart.....I wasted 25 mins trying to listen and the only thing i could hear was my stomach growling for food which made me realize that I was hungry :|

I ate and then I got back to my unfinished job(yea, I was listening to my heart again)

continued....

Friday, August 22, 2008

and the hang over continues.....!

Yea now week 3:

you finally think of your beloved classmates......
their nick names, funny incidents, lil punishments, birthday presents,a fight with your best friend for scoring more marks in viva :p ..............yea the list goes on
and suddenly you realize that you miss them :-??

and this week is something i call "The Rumination week "

a typical day in rumination week(or "the call me and eat my brain week")

motto: ringa ringa roses......and my story never closes!(okay! that doesn't make any sense...but it rhymes :D )

yea! you got it right............this is The Most disgusting phase of the HDH(Happy Days Hangover)

you wake up at 10:00 AM. brush your teeth and then...... you just miss your friends :-/ .........and then accidentally you lay your eyes on the most amazing invention in the whole room (NOOOOO! not the TV>:p its the Telephone \:D/).

Then what...........oww please you know it better than i do..........

Right you call your best friends and then your good friends and then your friends and your classmates, your juniors, seniors,all your college mates.........ok i never tried this but i know a few "I miss you" Monsters who wouldn't mind calling their professors and even the librarian in some cases..........
oww where was i? yea you call all your friends and then you ruminate on all your college experiences.
share anecdotes of chivalry(yea like saving your sub-junior form a puny lil junior guy who is trying his level best to display his never existing rough attitude and trying even harder bully his humongous target(target : sub-junior)),
remembering those traumatizing situations(i mean like those when you lost the text book you borrowed from The library on your friend's account........the friend who then made it a point to taunt you for the rest of your life),
remembering those silly jokes you cracked......when nobody laughed.......

And those disturbing arguments(about the librarian's attitude,food in canteen,dust on chalk board and of course the mustache of the Administrative officer),
Throwing light on the undiscovered success stories (i mean like those when you scored the highest in the Final internal.....well most of the times you'll be the only one writing that one).
Those adventurous moments you revel on (like those when you bunk a really boring class and then take the names of all 3 crore Gods in Hindu mythology to get out of the college gate unnoticed).

yea you do this for the whole WEEK..........call one after the other until there is no one left............
and then you catch hold of your really unfortunate family member and tell him the same old story about your college life.when your done with him you'll catch another one....you wouldn't spare your pet either (the most innocent and helpless creature in the family.) bhairu still hates me for that!(for less mortals who don't know bhairava...he's my wise old pal...my not so loyal pet :D)
and then your most experienced and the wisest family member(who is obviously vexed with your nostalgic fit) asks you to go out and have fun with your friends


WEEK FOUR : "The lets meet week"

you've planned for the get-together, you are planing for it ,and you'll always plan cause this planning phase I tell you, never ends :(( .........
you make calls, discuss it over video conferences in yahoo , emails,Gmails, y mails yes rocket mails too! you meet few personally (all this is planning a get-together). and this "planning thing" is a recipe for disaster btw!
you tend to fight with all your friends and suddenly you feel lonely and gloomy.then what, you are depressed! well you'll be happy again (cause, your best friend calls and asks you to drop the whole idea of the get-together thing. you do it and you r happy again)


Then without a "plan" you just meet your best buddies.......sit for sometime,ruminate on common best moments,start on with your silly jokes(well this time they laugh :D). and then you hug all your best friends. Few really emotional freaks choose to cry at this moment.Well, none of my friends cried.But, I did! and later had to deal with the most humiliating consequences (trust me over this, you'd never want to cry in a public place...... :"> )

and then........what do i say people!..................ooooooooooooo oooooooooo ooooooooo ooo O o OOO oooo OOOO oooooo Happy days.............happy dayssssssssssss ooooooooooooo O o OOO


Guys!!! Get over it.............

It's a new day.....it's a new start...........

Monday, June 09, 2008

After the Happy Days ***yawn yawn***

Well it is Obvious from the title that i am talking about the time when you are just done with your exams.The time when the "HAPPY DAYS hAnGoVeR" is still very fresh!!!!

Prologue:
It all starts in the final semester of your graduation.You start collecting pictures, naming your gang(which never bothered you before),planing for the get together parties,getting your autograph books signed,trying to look different(adapting a lil matured side of yours and then some of us end up doing the exact opposite thing.)

HAPPY DAYS hAnGoVeR:

finally!!! done with the graduation!!!

The 1st week:

->You feel really tired.
-> i mean the last minute learning, 3 hrs of continuous scribbling in the exam halls, and of course you are spiritually obliged to help the guy sitting next to you in the exam hall. (come 'on you have to! he's your soul brother you've been through the same torture before and you understand his agony of not being able to answer a particularly difficult question)
Argh those tiring night out sessions!
Eventually, you end up resting for the entire week.and so I call this period the 'Resting week'.

" resting week"???

A Typical day in resting week
motto: Rise and shine and the week is totally mine!!!!
wake up time: early in the morning 11:30 AM
Agenda: 1. love TV,live TV,Eat TV,cry TV,talk TV and walk TV,DIE TV, TV,TV,TV
2.shut yourself in your room with a PC (try and win few Video games)
3.Read few books(not suggestible in resting week but, do it only when you are left with no other option.Well, here i am referring to the inevitable situations like power failure and Brain wash)

Bed time : 7:30-9:30 PM(I mean....come 'on its resting week).


Week 2:

->The boredom dawns on you.
-> you are totally saturated with the TV channels:

i mean all the news channels!!! They keep babbling about the same old issue.(like Rakhi to be starred in RGV's new movie " the tamarind tree".(which apparently is the sequel of the sholay remake and it' s dubbed version would be 'mantralaki koolipoyina chintachettu') ) and then you change the channel, lets say a music channel. GOD!!! what do i say!! even the music channels are polluted these days :(
aww! those were the days when they used to play Devang Patel's Parody songs.
And now, we are forced to watch these special reality shows where the most coveted perfect bride hand picks her perfect groom form a crowd of zillion people :| (yes, the mighty sawant's omnipotent)

speaking of the changes in the TV programs. there are a few channels and shows which still remain unadulterated and unchanged(eg: the DD: raithu nestham :(( , hello CM, =)) ,the bald and the bountiful,
the star parivaar,ekta ki atma Katha and the rest!)



Exatcly, week two is for vexation!


to be continued................

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Don't u think i just said that??...............!!!!!!!!!![:o][:x]

/*..................the manipulations are done as per our interest to get the best results..............
blah.......!!!!!! blah!!!...................
............................................
........and thats the way it works!!!..................

and this completes our topic..............any doubts class???!!!!! */


me: Sir u just mentioned that...............
blah! blah!.......................
.....................................
and that contradicts the point!!!!
so how can u say that it goes this way?????
(my heart was filled with contentment.......i was soooooooooo proud.........i felt like the one and only mini "EINSTEIN" of the class!........[8)] )

sir: what?? huh![:o] he jus ignored me and moved to Ravi standing in the adjacent row(waiting to share his thoughts on the topic!)..........


meena: u stupid! why did u do that[:x] u know & u know it very well that i was sleeping
how dare u??!!!!!! how could u?? why did u.........????
tashu: yea !!you shudn't have!!!!!!
anju: meena![:o]............nisha!! whats her problem yaar!
me: poor meenu got scared!!!!!!!............actually! she had a very good nap..........and
Prof. Ananthlok..............![:D]
meena: yea i thought he knew that i was pretending.......!
(that shez listening to the class )
and u!!!! was that soo necessary to call him![:x]

anju: btw, nisha! impressive darling!
thats a good point u raised!
i wonder what Ravi has?!
/*after a long pause*/

Prof.A: interesting! very interesting!!! im soo proud of my students........
it makes me feel gr8888..........that i have an oppurtunity to teach young scientists like u and ravi............. im proud of u boy.........now dear students ravi here, has an interesting point to talk about.............itz like...................(the same doubt i had!) blah balh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.............
and i want u guys to work on it........itz ur assignment.........work on it........!!!!



me: [:o][:o] what!!!! what was that for!!!!!
[:x] Don't u think i jus said that...........!!!
i mean i had the same doubt!
i raised the same point!!!!!
and how cum ravi gets all the credit![:x]

and that DOG he just heard me talking to Mr.A!!! >:p


anju: [:d][:d]=)) oops! itz okay nisha chill!!! u know abt Prof.A
meena: AILAAA! nishaaaaaaaaaaaaa! do u want me to kill him!
anju: him who??? ravi or A
ME: better be both! >:p
Tashu: i think "A" should go first

Isha:btw, wat abt weekend? planned anything??
meena: well! movie???
anju: naaah! y movies all the time!?!
me: hey, bowling??!![8)]
meena: naah!..........................hmmm........pizza, coke.........bowling??!!
tashu : just stay home!!! we've got an assignment to work on! you just heard Mr.A.didn't ya??!!
anju: shut up yaar tashu!! and wow meena !!!thats a great idea!
isha: meena u rock!

me: [:o][:o] what???
ah! nuts!!!!!!
why? what! whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy???
meena: what, what??
me: whatever![:x]

meena, anju, isha!: ya ya don't you think Nisha just said that??!!
yea baby bowling was your plan.......and you get all the credit

Tashu: o! I thought that was meenu's plan!!

me: tash, did i ever tell you that you resemble Mr.A in many aspects!!!???

tashu: #@%R%$^%&^$@#!@@!@#@#@#@ nisha!!! #@$#^%&%^@!



/* things happen...........btw lemme tell u if i get a chance........ i swear......i swear....... that i would kill Mr.A..............and where were we??? ya things happen!*/

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

To speak or not to speak!

/*Its better to speak something coz silence kills!
and sometimes a word let out in haste can get worst out of the situation!*/

good morning class!
today we'll be discussing abt MICRO-ARRAY!

me: hey! did you write the assignment
anju: i didn't
me: i did[:D]
anju: ha, u've used the net again[:x]
me: oh ya![:p]
SILENCE!

me: oops we'll discuss it later
anju: ya we better shutup now!

............and our 2nd unit is completed

meena: second unit completed :o!!! When did this happen?

me: hey its Isha's birthday so did ya wish her
anju: ya i did!! but does she really care for our wishes!??

me: oh! ya "Revanth the senior guy"!she only cares for his wishes.
i dunno what her problem is?? shez obsessed with that revanth guy!!!
anju: and u know wat hes the dumbest guy i've ever known
i bet he can't spell "happy birthday"
me: ha ha hahaha[:D][:))][=))]

meena: guys cum'on ,come here!! i gotta show u something.
anju: wat is it whackhooooo!!!!
me: wat?? wats happening??
meena: check it out.....guess what revanth the dumbo did!
he didn't wish isha :p
and u know wat they jus encountered each other in the corridor.
cum'on itz a great entertainment to watch them fight!!
come lets enjoy /)
me: wait lemme get the pop-corn
anju: oh! shut up nisha........jus grow up!!
itz a serious conversation and.........
we dare not to miss it.......no time for pop corn![:p]

meena: hurry up idiots!

/* isha & revanth facing each other
revanth the dumbo(rd) standing clueless
isha looking like matha kali dressed up in jeans and a pink tee */


isha: good morning!
rd: hey new dress looking cute what is the occasion??
( mann! hez soooooo dead[:D] thats y i say when u have no clue don't speak for HEAVEN's sake!)

isha: oh! y don't u tell me the occasion!
rd silent
rd silent
"
"
"
( me, meena, anju: wat?? wat is he doing
y hez not speaking???

me: son! say something anything will do now
jus say im sorry or i've planned for a surprise
or at least happy birthday
say something u dumbo![:x]
anju: what !!!! do u think he can hear u from here?[:x]
even if he does hear u...... i bet hez dumb enough to
know wat u r talking about........hahahah don't u see
he has no clue that it is isha's birthday
meena: yaaaaa look at his award winnig dialogue
hey wats the occasion??, looking cute[:p]

me: say something!)



rd: hey! yaaa i know u went for shopping last sunday!
isha: ya! and y did i go shopping ??
rd: coz monday is ur birthday
isha: and today is??
rd: monday!
silence................

"
rd: ah! itz ur birthday[blinking eyes]



( meena: i knew he was dumb. But it took him 8 min !!!! :O
me: omg!
anju: give me a brEAk!)




isha: i know u were planning for a surprise ma sweetu :)
rd: silent
"
"


me: say yes u idiot!
ow! cum'on say something
silence kills her
say something!!!



rd: oh ya actually i didn't know it was ur birthday
moreover u didn't wish me on my birthday



( me:oh! god!!!!!
i didn't mean that thing!
silence was much better)

isha: wat? i did ,i was the first one to wish u remember!! ??!!#$@$$%


(anju: i bet he didn't
he doesn't remember his roll number for god's sake)


rd: oh yaaaa!!!

(meena: wat?? he remembered!!![:o])


rd: then it wasn't u it was rahul
i got confused yaar!
u see, ur names they rhyme!!


( me,anju,meena: what??[:o]
what rhymes!!!!!!!!
itz such a lame excuse
meena: itz not an excuse!!
poor baby he actually thought they rhyme[:p])


isha: u know what revanth..... just.... forget it![:x]


/*as said "Thoughts unexpressed may sometimes fall back dead,
BUT GOD HIMSELF CANNOT KILL THEM WHEN THEY r SAID"
ya silence kills, but for revanth it was much better when he didn't speak*/